Took down checkout for nine minutes in my third month and the retro barely mentioned me

Merged a config change on a Friday morning that pointed a service at the wrong queue. Alerts went off and someone rolled it back before I'd even worked out what I'd done.

What I keep coming back to is the retro. I walked in ready to apologise for twenty minutes and the entire conversation was about why that config had no validation and why the rollback took six minutes instead of one. My name came up exactly once, as "the person who found the gap".

Still felt awful for two days. But nobody treated it like a character flaw, and I don't think I'd understood that was possible.