Interviewing while still employed means my calendar is a lie for six weeks straight

Four "dentist appointments" this month alone. Angled my laptop camera so the second monitor with the interview notes doesn't show. Burned two PTO days on final rounds and told my manager I was "handling something personal," which is technically true. The guilt is the part nobody mentions — not fear of getting caught exactly, more this low hum of feeling dishonest to people who've been decent to me. Does that ever stop being uncomfortable or do you just get faster at compartmentalizing it?